It's Winter Break!!!

salam..

it's winter breaks folks!!
lakinn..it's the 2nd half of the breaks..
next week will be back to school..
hmmph..not much time to update i guess since the last one, 20012010..sigh..

hacky's not in a good condition..
waiting for the specialist to reply how to treat him..
if no further change or there is no other way..
he'll be in the operation procedure..
i hope not..cause it'll either cause complete memory lost or complete recovery..
of course i'm hoping for complete recovery..
i don't know what'll happen to me if he lost completely his memory..
i'll be the sadest person ever on earth..
he'll be a completely new hacky which i can't barely think of it..
he done a lot for me..
he's a part of my life..
he help me a lot when i'm in need..
he ease my work with his intelligence and talent..
he calm me when i'm sad..
he is really loyal and always be by my side..

i guess i was the fault..
i put everything in him..
i want him to be this..
i want him to be that..
i want him to be everything..
so he would be perfect in everything..
now, it almost 5 days he stays in that condition..
no improvement..
last time the live support machine failure..
and this time,, it's the internal system disease..
don't know which system is affected..
if the main system is affected,, then i'll be .........

hacky,
though my love to u is not as before..
but u know that i love u as for i need u in everything..
my job, my study, my life, my everything..
u know even my love has shifted but still u fill a part of my heart..
u know that right hacky..
and i know u'll never feel neglected although i've shifted my love..
cause u know the one who i love the most now is the right one to be loved..

"get well soon hacky!!"
i need u

p/s but i need Him the most..