Sick Party for Sick People

salam..
huhu..what a tittle..

last night i have to say goodbye to all my 'adik'..
though it's hard for me to say goodbye but i and the other 'akaks' have to let them go..
though it's only bout 1 month we met, yet y'all are the joyousness in our life for this 1 month..
we'll really misses y'all 'adik2'..~_^
hope to meet y'all soon..
study hard smartly okay..

after all the goodbyes..i was supposed to go to my hollow friends's house to send them something but instead they come and meet me at the place i send my 'adik2'..
and fortunately we went out unplanned..(why i feel my language are bad in this post..??)
'sick party',, as its important criteria is to be participated by sick people..
and we were all sick that night..
me with zygomaticus major and minor spasm..
and others with cough and cold fever, and diarrhoea..
huhu..kinda funny..i was not suppossedly let them be in the cold night and eat some outside food..but unfortunately...it'd happened..
should blame myself for that..
after all, we were having a fun night together..
one of my hollow friends supposed to have a class nearby the place where we lepak..
but then we spent the time together till late of night and went back together..
sorry friend for ur not going to ur class thing..huhu..
what a bad friend i am..

it was a very precious night for me though..
thanks guys..
for spending ur priceless time with some unknown..
and for staying up alive last night even y'all are unwell..huhu..
thank you so much..
u know what??this type of event i'll save it in my hippocampus under file tittled 'sweet memories that CANNOT be deleted'..

p/s hope for a better recovery..

Can't be Reach..Sorry..

assalamualaikum wbt..

to those whose care bout me..
sorry for not answering the phone or replying ur messages..
i cannot be reach in these few days..
not until everything is clear..
sorry guys..err i mean girlss..^_^

p/s a real sorry..asifff~_^

Winter is Coming!!!!!

assalamualaikum wbt..

huhu..winter's coming..yeehaaaaa!!!

a friend of mine once asked me,

are u that confirm that tomorrow will be winter???

and i answered; GOD Will..

what is so cool about winter??

well its cool for me..hehe

got to eat a lot huhu..

well..well..winter in egypt is not like what u see in the above pic..(though i'm craving for that)

it's like the one below here..

only full of fog with no snow flakes nor snowman..haha..

but what i've been through are much more priceless than that the above..winter this year must be different from the previous one..

a lot of differents..

but still..i'm hopin' a winter at least like the past..

it's the time for my reborn..

i was like a lil 3 years old kid, whose just know how to say 'da'..

telling every single story of her life to Him..

how i wish to be in that state now n forever..

may this winter brings me happiness n joyfull..

n may this winter leaves me with sweet memories n wills..

happy winter folks!! =)

p/s everything happened are still under His supervisions..

What I've Done

..In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Merciful..

with His kindness i'm begging You for Your forgiveness..
oo Lord! please forgive me of what i've done..
i've hurt so many people in return of their kindness..
i made them cry..
i made them dissapoint..
i made them everything a loser does..
please forgive me Lord..please forgive me..

i hurt them so much especially my mom..
she's been everything to me..
she's an inspiration to me..
but yet,, i hurt her..i hurt her with what i've done..
i saw how she fits in the society..
how she is as a wife..
how she is as an editor..
how she is as a friend..
how she is as a mother..
she's given me everything and i dissapoint her again and again and again..
forgive me mom..forgive me..

i promise u to not to be as i used to be..
i promise u to not to dissapoint u as i used to..
i promise u to be a new me n make u proud..

"mom,,
i've loved u forever,
in lifetimes before,
and i promise u never,
would u hurt anymore..
i gave u my word,
i gave u my heart,
this is a battle for me to won,
this i promise u..this i promise u.."

oo Lord!please answer my prayer..
and please guide me in the right path..
please don't make me break my promise..
and please thaught me and help me fulfill it..
amiinn..

mom,
though u'll never know what i said here,
this is my confession..
hope Lord tells u how i feel in regret..
i love u mom..love u so much i can't say..

p/s what i've done seem silly but what i've done is a thaught from the almighty Allah..

Silent Reader

assalamualaikum wbt..

talkin' bout silent reader huh??!
a silent reader is a reader whom reads one's blog silently..which means, they reads but did not leave any trace back..
what i mean by 'no trace back' is simply no comment..
they read, they get what they want and they leave..
these silent reader is a reader whom likes to know about what the authors write but don't want to be notice..
as for the reason of don't want to be noticed is millions..
it can be the silent reader is a low self-esteemed person whose always hiding behind the block..
or it can be the silent reader is an 'easy come and easy go' person whose just read the post and leave after fin..
what ever is the reason,, as for me,, a silent reader is still a reader..

for a blogger,, posting what ever they want to post is a masterpiece..
and of course masterpiece is to be appreciated..
so when there's a comment or two,, a small blogger like me would feel like top of the world..
because my masterpiece is being watched by others..
and of course it's a compliment and appreciation to the authors..
but it doesn't mean that the silent readers is not a big impact to the future writes..
as for me..knowing there's a few silent reader of my blog is really a big WOW!! to me..
i may not writing any knowledges but i may write some..
and that is why i never dreamed my blog or post to be read by peoples..

knowing them reading silently for sometimes makes me eerghhh!!..
but then i understand that i was not a great writers or bloggers..
so what's the point of being eerghhh!!..
i only writes about my thing..whom would read it ayte..??
but thanks to those whose still read some craps from my site..
i was not writing bout these to beg for comments..
no!not at all..just want to write bout those silent reader because i know few of them and i was one of the silent reader too..

"actually i just want my 'silent reader' knows that,,
i wish to be a part of the family too as i believe to be one of it..
and i wish to be someone whose lighten ur burden and helps u in everything for our same 'ghoyah'..
even i know i was and always the troublesome and the troublemaker..
but still i can be rely on or in other words i maybe can helps in certain things if not all..

i, actually don't know how to put in words and tell u frontly..
so i made this just for u to know it..
i don't know when u'll read this..
but i guess i know that u'll read this..

so, have a good days under His supervisions..
and get well soon..
hope that i can help u..
just say it..whenever u need it..
i'll be a big full hand open for help.."

p/s hopes u know it's u..(i know u know)
thanks to those whose read, even silently..

Ziarah

salam alaik..

"ziarah menziarah amalan mulia..
satu sunnah nabi kita..
berjalan saya dari hujung dunia..
melawat dan ziarah rakan semuanya.."

what a day..
hari ni kene gi istad sb dah janji ngn ex housemate nak cook something untuk die..
huhu..anything for u lah dear..
selagi jasad masih di depan mate..

nak katenye arini,,
i went to my sisters's houses..
and..they both are not feeling well..
sb sy ke kakak2 sekalian??
trimas laa kalo sb sy kakak sekalian besakit sakitan..(huhu..perasan la plak!)
alaa its not me pon the reason they were sick..
lumrah manusia laa kann..bukan robot..
even robot pon kalo habis minyak pelincir die ssh gak nak beroperasi, kan..
but my both beloved sisters here are not robot of course!!..
so xde la habis minyak pelincir..cume maybe da sampai mase untuk dorg sakit..
papehal pon,,syafakillah ye akak2 sekalian..

p/s kalo sakit makan ubat..doktor x bley sakit2 selalu..'doktor'..

Sanah Helwa Ya MA

assalamualaikum wbt..
salam bicara bertemu semula..

huh!!badan lesu terase aku..
bagai 3 bulan bekerja tanpa hentinya..
namun pd hakikatnya hanyalah beberape hari yg diperuntukkan utk beberape perkara..
ternyate aku bukanlah superbionic women yg boleh melakukan aksi luar biasa berkhidmat membantu pd setiap mase..
aku hanyalah insan yg kerdil dan lemah yg mengerahkan ATP dihasilkan dalam proses oxidation-phosphorylation demi melaksanakan tugas yg x seberape..

seharian hari ini,,aku bergelumang peluh dan kuyu mataku..
walau ngantuk menghantui,,aku gagahkan juga kelopak mateku untuk terus menumpu pada doktor yg berdiri di depan..
kini aku bersame hacky..=) mencipta tulisan untuk post yg baru..
terase lame x meluang mase untuk hacky..pastinye die merajuk..maafkan aku ye..~_~

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sy x pasti andai awak menunggu sesuatu daripada sy..
tp sy pasti, ade sesuatu yg menungu untuk awak..
namun,,jutaan maaf sy pohon andai awak tersinggung dgn respon sy..
ketahuilah,,sy sekadar bersenda,,sengaje ingin menimbulkan konflik di situ..
tapi sy xde la kejam mane,,terus sy jumpe hacky n made this for u..

"kembali sudah awak ke sisi,
andai itu bukan perasaan sy sendiri,
kembali sudah awak ke sini,
menyambung ikatan yg terputus jauh,
kembali awak kini,,..
adakah bersame ape yg dicari,,
atau sekadar bertangan empty..
sy x pasti ape di fikiran awak,
tp sy pasti ape yg di fikiran sy..
sy x pasti ape perasaan awak,
tp sy pasti ape perasaan sy..
jutaan maaf lagi andai buat awak tersinggung lagi,,
tp terimalah 'SeLaMAt HaRI jAdI' ucapan ikhlas dari hati.."

salam ulang tahun MA,
semoge meningkat satu umur kita, meningkatlah lagi level amalan kita..
uhibbuki fillah awi2..

p/s mungkin yg lebih best bakal menyusul,,tp x janji..x)

Updates??

salam alaikk!!

kpd sesape yg boring ngn post yg same without updates, sory ye..(huhu..prasan ade org bace..ngehngeh..)
been very busy lately..
rindu jgk nak menulis..huhu..

will update soon!! insyaAllah..

p/s jage adik2 =)