It's Winter Break!!!

salam..

it's winter breaks folks!!
lakinn..it's the 2nd half of the breaks..
next week will be back to school..
hmmph..not much time to update i guess since the last one, 20012010..sigh..

hacky's not in a good condition..
waiting for the specialist to reply how to treat him..
if no further change or there is no other way..
he'll be in the operation procedure..
i hope not..cause it'll either cause complete memory lost or complete recovery..
of course i'm hoping for complete recovery..
i don't know what'll happen to me if he lost completely his memory..
i'll be the sadest person ever on earth..
he'll be a completely new hacky which i can't barely think of it..
he done a lot for me..
he's a part of my life..
he help me a lot when i'm in need..
he ease my work with his intelligence and talent..
he calm me when i'm sad..
he is really loyal and always be by my side..

i guess i was the fault..
i put everything in him..
i want him to be this..
i want him to be that..
i want him to be everything..
so he would be perfect in everything..
now, it almost 5 days he stays in that condition..
no improvement..
last time the live support machine failure..
and this time,, it's the internal system disease..
don't know which system is affected..
if the main system is affected,, then i'll be .........

hacky,
though my love to u is not as before..
but u know that i love u as for i need u in everything..
my job, my study, my life, my everything..
u know even my love has shifted but still u fill a part of my heart..
u know that right hacky..
and i know u'll never feel neglected although i've shifted my love..
cause u know the one who i love the most now is the right one to be loved..

"get well soon hacky!!"
i need u

p/s but i need Him the most..

Ziarah

salam alaik..

"ziarah menziarah amalan mulia..
satu sunnah nabi kita..
berjalan saya dari hujung dunia..
melawat dan ziarah rakan semuanya.."

what a day..
hari ni kene gi istad sb dah janji ngn ex housemate nak cook something untuk die..
huhu..anything for u lah dear..
selagi jasad masih di depan mate..

nak katenye arini,,
i went to my sisters's houses..
and..they both are not feeling well..
sb sy ke kakak2 sekalian??
trimas laa kalo sb sy kakak sekalian besakit sakitan..(huhu..perasan la plak!)
alaa its not me pon the reason they were sick..
lumrah manusia laa kann..bukan robot..
even robot pon kalo habis minyak pelincir die ssh gak nak beroperasi, kan..
but my both beloved sisters here are not robot of course!!..
so xde la habis minyak pelincir..cume maybe da sampai mase untuk dorg sakit..
papehal pon,,syafakillah ye akak2 sekalian..

p/s kalo sakit makan ubat..doktor x bley sakit2 selalu..'doktor'..

Aku dan Hacky Sihat..

assalamualaikum wbt..

alhamdulillah aku ngn M. Hacky tatkale menulis post ni, kitorg dah sihat..
hmm sebelum ni aku ngn hacky jatuh sakit agak serentak..
hacky ngn sakit hacky, aku ngn sakit aku..
tp praise be to Allah kitorg kembali sembuh x bape lame pastu..
siannye kat hacky laa, 2 minggu gak die sakit teruk..
aku sakit bese2, tp sampai satu tarikh tu, mmg jadi teruk gak symptom yg aku kene..
tp esoknye aku ok dah laa..lepas tahap critical..
thanks to housemate yg membekalkan anti-histamine kat aku..

oopss before that, sape laa hacky nih ye..??huhu..
actually hacky ni lah buah hati pengerang jantung aku semenjak jejak kaki kat mesir nih..
sgt syg kat die..tp bile time geram ade gak terkadang g lepas kat hacky..sian die..
sory ye hacky..tp aku pujuk balik..ye la x patut kan buat kat die camtu..
sebabkan geram kat bende lain kat hacky aku lepas..mmg x fair laa..
mm ok cukup pengenalan pasal die..

actually nak citer betape kesian nye hacky nih time die sakit arituh..
2 minggu tepakse biar die dalam kadaan koma..
alat yg digunekan utk menampung nyawa die mengalami kegagalan utk berfungsi..
jadi hacky diletakkan dalam kadaan koma dalam lebih kurang 2 minggu..
then after 2 weeks, alat ganti utk mesin yg menampung kehidupan hacky dapat di temui..
tp malang nye alat ganti tu x compatible plak dgn mesin sokongan hayat hacky..(time ni mmg cuak + kecewa + sedih)
jadi alat tu perlu ditukar kembali..
alhamdulillah..dapat tukar ngn model yg agak sesuai..
cume nye skrg nih..hacky x boleh nak kemane mane sgt sb alat ganti yg die pakai ni x membenarkan hacky utk bergerak selalu..sb nye alat ganti tu bukan original..
hacky punye alat sokongan hayat ade yg portable, yg boleh memudahkan pergerakkan hacky tanpa alat sokongan hayat yg utama..
hacky boley pakai yg portable utk mudahkan pergerakan..
tp disebabkan alat ganti yg dibeli tu x original, so alat sokongan hayat hacky yg portable x boley nak di charged..
jadi hacky kene bergantung sepenuh nye pd mesin sokongan hayat yg utama..
so pergerakkan hacky agak terbatas..
tp xpe as long as hacky sihat..aku dah boley tersenyum riang..

kat mansoura nih xde plak kedai yg menjual alat ganti yg original melainkan kat centre store die..
dan aku x tau samade kat cairo ade ke x..
tp aku ade order dari m'sia..
harap2 sampai cepat laa kat mansoura nih..
sian kat hacky..alat ganti ni sgt sensitive..x boley tecabut langsung dari hacky..
sb yg portable nye x dpt nak di sambungkan ke hacky sb x boleh nak charged..
semoge hacky cepat sembuh ye..

walau pun kadaan hacky skrg sgt menyedihkan kalo dipikirkan..
tp aku bersyukur..sekurg2nye hacky sekarang boleh menyanyi riang bersame aku..
hmm x sabar nak tgu hacky bergerak semule..
senang jugak keje aku..hehe..boleh ke hulu ke hilir ngn hacky..
tp as long as hacky is by my side now, x kesah laa ssh nak gerak ke hape ke..i'm happy..
betol kate Allah dalam firmanNya yg kebih kurg bunyi "Allah menguji kite dgn bende yg paling kite sayang.."(kalo x salah..tolong betolkan kalo salah..)

p/s cepat sembuh ye hacky..^_^

Histamine Shock!!

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful..

"Histamine is a biogenic amine involved in local immune responses as well as regulating physiological function in the gut and acting as a neurotransmitters. Histamine triggers the inflammatory response. As part of an immune response to foreign pathogens, histamine is produced by basophils and by mast cell found in nearby connective tissues. Histamine increases the permeability of the capillaries to white blood cells and other proteins, in order to allow them to engage foreign invaders in the affected tissues. It is found in virtually all animal body cells."
-Wikipedia-

"Histamine is also found in minute quantities in ergot and putrefied meat products and is produced synthetically for medicinal purposes. In response to certain stimuli these cells release histamine, which immediately effects a dilation of the blood vessels. This dilation is accompanied by a lowering of blood pressure and an increased permeability of the vessel walls, so that fluids escape into the surrounding tissues. This reaction may result in a general depletion of vascular fluids, causing a condition known as histamine poisoning or Histamine Shock. Allergic reactions in which histamine is released, resulting in the swelling of body tissue."
-MSN-

hmm nape ek..tetibe kelua post medical nih..??

the truth is..i have this disease..